Life is a whirlwind right now. In the past, I would have freaked out by now. TOO BUSY! MUST STOP! JUST CAN'T DO ANYMORE! But somehow at the end of each day, I turn to Micheal and say something along the lines of, "I can't believe I'm still going." School takes a large chunk of our day, and cleaning up afterwards. Meals are constant along with the driving to and fro for sports practices and games. Trips have been planned and gone on. Relationships are being formed and deepened.
It's all absolutely great. I love my life. I love this stage. I love the crazy.
I have not always been able to say that and maybe I won't be singing this same tune in 3 months time.
But for now, I will enjoy the ride and choose joy and thankfulness.
You see, I have loved my time at home. The quiet of our days. The beautiful and steady routine. It's been a most lovely 12 years. Yes, we have done plenty in those years. Lots of activities and running amok, but this is a different season. I realize I am entering into a new span of time. A time of going, exploring and being out in our community. Things are opening up for me personally and us as a family that we have never been apart of in the past. And it's FUN!
Also, we have now been at our current residence for 2 years. We are settled. It feels like home. Oh, dulce domum, such a wonderful place.
We have friends and with that comes some of life's most terrific blessings:
Laughter!
Dinners!
Encouragement!
Tears!
Conversations full of challenging and sweet words.
I realized a couple of months ago that I have a fear of people. I don't really know how that fear got there but now that it has been shown to me, I have the power to deal with it. I am a very transparent person but with people you can get hurt, so there is a vulnerability with relationships that is terrifying. I have been going back and forth with myself and God and a couple close friends about these issues. I have been working out what exactly to do about these feelings. I have been challenged to step out and be a friend. A good friend. The kind of friend that I want. It's tough sometimes! I am such a homebody, I could be home all the time and be happy. But really, when I'm honest with myself, being a part of my community in the small ways I am right now give me great joy also. I am becoming more and more comfortable out in the great, small place I call home. I am not allowing myself to go over and over the stupid things I say when in groups. Really, I am getting over myself and seeing the gold in others.
You know what I am finding?
There's a lot of gold.
I'm rich and loaded down with blessings.
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Tuesday, September 6, 2016
Monday, February 22, 2016
Poetry
Not all that long ago I was terrified of poetry. I didn't know how to interpret it and didn't want to take the time to truly chew on what I was reading. I'm known as a very black and white personality. Tell me how it is. Don't beat around the bush. Don't try to hint. Just tell me already! Symbolism? Alliteration? Couplets? Nope.
Well, after reading blogs post, listening to podcasts, and just deciding to jump in, here I am a few months later, enjoying poetry!!
I don't understand it all. I don't know all the rules. But I am having fun with it and that, to me, is one of the most important reasons to do something.
I started with Robert Frost. I mean who doesn't love and appreciate his famous, The Road Not Taken? I picked up this picture book from our local library and read it a few times with my kiddos. I LOVE this book! Then I borrowed another book on his life with some of his poems spread throughout. Then I got yet another book that the kids and I read through about Mr. Frost and it's been no looking back since!
We have a few printed sheets of small poems to memorize that have been fun. Edward Lear is hilarious and Ogden Nash, too! My daughter and I enjoy Christina Rossetti.
I found A Child's Anthology of Poetry at a thrift store a few weeks back and we have gobbled up so many great poems in our morning time. A fave has been Life Doesn't Frighten Me by Maya Angelou. It seems fitting too, as we (and when I say we I mean, "I", because why would my kids have a fear of poetry? That's just silly. :)) have found that when you don't fear something, you can take it full on and you can discover that the thing you really feared was just a misunderstanding, an unknowing, and that thing just might turn into something you love.
My husband challenged the whole family tonight to write a poem about Winter turning to Spring. It didn't have to rhyme or be anything but your thoughts on paper. This is what we came up with:
The light of days
begins to grow,
thoughts of summer's
warm glow.
The snow of Christmas
flows down the road,
melted flakes fill the
river banks.
Our thoughts turn to
flowers, apples and bikes.
Campfires and floats will soon replace
the snowball and sledding
we've long embraced.
Spring is near and in our hearts,
it's always welcome and held dear.
- Micheal
The Great Thawing Time
The Bible says there is a time for everything.
Right now I find myself slipping from Winter to Spring.
Snow heaps melting,
Days warming,
Happy face on me.
Days are getting longer,
Nature is calling out.
After the last of the melt off
All will be asprout.
So long nights of roaring fire!
Lazy days of reading!
Hello days of mud and mire!
Filled days of seeding.
- Rebecca
Spring
The Spring is coming. The flowers are blooming, petal by petal. All the trees
are blooming, too. And people are having fun in new Spring air.
- Grace
Flower Bloom
The flower blooms, the flower is opening into the sunshine. It's a beautiful sight if you see it in late Winter. It's fun to watch it grow and open. It is opening itself to the sun, a flower on the hillside with a big blue sky, some people come and steal it's seeds. They also salt them, then they spit the seeds and the flower is sad that he will not be able to make more. He is a sunflower.
- Zade
Sun is bright.
Winter cold.
Wild trees and woods.
And even seeds.
- August
Raging fire,
cold snow.
Where did all the heat go?
- August
I never want to let fear stop me. I never want to stop growing because I'm allowing something to get the best of me. I want to press on and continue to learn and have fun doing it! I want my kids to see their Mama and Daddy learning right alongside them! For them to know that education doesn't stop after "school hours" or graduation, but that you can enjoy the ride for your whole life!
I am thrilled to have jumped into poetry.
Shakespeare is next on my list.
And Homer.
What fears are you conquering right now?
Well, after reading blogs post, listening to podcasts, and just deciding to jump in, here I am a few months later, enjoying poetry!!
I don't understand it all. I don't know all the rules. But I am having fun with it and that, to me, is one of the most important reasons to do something.
I started with Robert Frost. I mean who doesn't love and appreciate his famous, The Road Not Taken? I picked up this picture book from our local library and read it a few times with my kiddos. I LOVE this book! Then I borrowed another book on his life with some of his poems spread throughout. Then I got yet another book that the kids and I read through about Mr. Frost and it's been no looking back since!
We have a few printed sheets of small poems to memorize that have been fun. Edward Lear is hilarious and Ogden Nash, too! My daughter and I enjoy Christina Rossetti.
I found A Child's Anthology of Poetry at a thrift store a few weeks back and we have gobbled up so many great poems in our morning time. A fave has been Life Doesn't Frighten Me by Maya Angelou. It seems fitting too, as we (and when I say we I mean, "I", because why would my kids have a fear of poetry? That's just silly. :)) have found that when you don't fear something, you can take it full on and you can discover that the thing you really feared was just a misunderstanding, an unknowing, and that thing just might turn into something you love.
My husband challenged the whole family tonight to write a poem about Winter turning to Spring. It didn't have to rhyme or be anything but your thoughts on paper. This is what we came up with:
The light of days
begins to grow,
thoughts of summer's
warm glow.
The snow of Christmas
flows down the road,
melted flakes fill the
river banks.
Our thoughts turn to
flowers, apples and bikes.
Campfires and floats will soon replace
the snowball and sledding
we've long embraced.
Spring is near and in our hearts,
it's always welcome and held dear.
- Micheal
The Great Thawing Time
The Bible says there is a time for everything.
Right now I find myself slipping from Winter to Spring.
Snow heaps melting,
Days warming,
Happy face on me.
Days are getting longer,
Nature is calling out.
After the last of the melt off
All will be asprout.
So long nights of roaring fire!
Lazy days of reading!
Hello days of mud and mire!
Filled days of seeding.
- Rebecca
Spring
The Spring is coming. The flowers are blooming, petal by petal. All the trees
are blooming, too. And people are having fun in new Spring air.
- Grace
Flower Bloom
The flower blooms, the flower is opening into the sunshine. It's a beautiful sight if you see it in late Winter. It's fun to watch it grow and open. It is opening itself to the sun, a flower on the hillside with a big blue sky, some people come and steal it's seeds. They also salt them, then they spit the seeds and the flower is sad that he will not be able to make more. He is a sunflower.
- Zade
Sun is bright.
Winter cold.
Wild trees and woods.
And even seeds.
- August
Raging fire,
cold snow.
Where did all the heat go?
- August
I never want to let fear stop me. I never want to stop growing because I'm allowing something to get the best of me. I want to press on and continue to learn and have fun doing it! I want my kids to see their Mama and Daddy learning right alongside them! For them to know that education doesn't stop after "school hours" or graduation, but that you can enjoy the ride for your whole life!
I am thrilled to have jumped into poetry.
Shakespeare is next on my list.
And Homer.
What fears are you conquering right now?
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